to be honest all that sf summer stuff sounds perfect right about now. Tobi texted me saying he's on his way home, and it pinches a little part of my heart to know I won't be there. There is truly no place like home, especially if home is San Franisco. To me there is no better feeling than lying in bed and watching tv with you and the kitties. Unfortunately this is all a part of growing up, and although it causes me pain, I am beyond thankful for the certainty I feel about New York. I must chase the love I feel for this place. I am a bit scared. It will be even harder to have those lonely friday nights knowing my friends are all reunited at home. It's okay though. I fall more and more in love with new york every day. I passed the deli you and I stopped at last august. We bought sandwiches there before my first ucb class. I remember perfectly the overwhelming anxiety I felt awaiting my new life in a scary city. We sat in a park and I tried to force feed myself a tuna sandwhich. I wouldn't recognize that girl any more. I feel so very much alive and confident.
I hope someday I write a short memoir or something about this past month. Now having had a few days to process it, I feel it's weight. This might sound over dramatic but I think this has been one of the biggest moments of my life so far. The world revealed it's true expansiveness to me, and for once I took it. I gobbled iup it's richness, and was left full in a way I way had longed for for so long.
Enough about me. I'm glad you've found a tribe within your work place. I think that's very important. I think you and I are similar in that way that when we work we like to talk and be social. I don't know how dad sits in his office all day by himself. He likes it that way I guess.
How's carrie? Joe? Tami?
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