Wednesday night at home

Dear Iz-bug,pumpkin head, Pumpkin head is what my dad use to call me when I was little.Anyway maybe the way you are feeling now and relate to others is a window into your future. When you were in LA and now with you establishing yourself in NY, it has demanded so much energy and 24/7 vigilance from yourself that it is hard to relax and be as open as you feel you can afford to be now. Or maybe the oepness you feel is a teacher for how you can be in your present life.Granted when one is on vacation and traveling and outside one's comfort zone ,one is more abke to be open but you can take some of this magic back home with you,it is part of you now. It is new experiences and environments that simply bring out parts of ourselves that have always lived inside of us. Leo on my lap, butter in a curl near by.I cleaned my crazy woman - studio tonight. Sometimes when I do actually see it somewhat objectively I can see how crazy it appears and think, jeeze Leigh how did you become so eccentric? Other times, most times I just feel like it is a part of me. I love you very much, have a wonderful day in Paris and call anytime but please let me know when you arrive in London. The mom